It rains outside and it rains a lot. I think inside. I do search my motivations at times. No satisfactory answer yet. There will be no way of knowing for sure until after I am somewhat settled with work and then I can think about the extracurriculars.

I do not know why I do things. Does that make me an automaton? Does that mean I am not thinking enough? Or am I just on autodrive? No, I know why.. I haven't had enough to really do. I haven't had enough dance classes for me to feel involved, I have no classes, I have no work, I have no deadlines. Hence no motivation.