The Destroyer

Sometimes you have tear down facades to build again. But then you think what about the human cost?
But that's socialism. Yet, while I am really totally logical and capitalistic, I have a soft heart. you know this.

How much it costs me to be wise (mocking smile). I bow before it all. Yet I am hurt and pained through it all.

Thinking through the industrial revolution. Those first strikes. The first changing economy. the evolving social structures that went with it all. I am 'struck'. We haven't moved far beyond that. Especially in this part of the world.

A dreamer is one who can only find his way y moonlight and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world - Oscar Wilde

I am a skeptic. Does that make me the lazy person who pulls the sheet over her head when the morning  comes?

I guess its a symptom of how tired I am that I haven't talked to you in forever

My rabbits are digging in their travel box

My stomach refuses to keep food down but I'm hungry

My money plant is dry but I poured a lot, a lot of water into it

My blanky is blue and beautiful

I walked around a mall for an hour wanting to shop but couldn't think of anything I needed

The opening ceremony was fun and I now want the soundtrack to the 'Pandemonium' piece

I am dreading Monday, I have a lot of work but I haven't worked at all this weekend

I have not read a good book in at least a month and yet I seem to spend all my spare time reading. Need to improve my yield rate

Salsa is fun but I need to be less lazy and get to class in time

I am very sleepy. Goodnight!

Higgsy!!!!

"Reliable rumors couldn’t wait, and they indicate that the experiments are seeing much the same thing as last year in this year’s new data: strong hints of a Higgs around 125 GeV. The main channel investigated is the gamma-gamma channel where they are each seeing about a 4 sigma signal."

Plot fail

I finally decided to start writing again today. I wrote out an hour in someone's life as a writing exercise but when I sat down to think about a plot to actually work on I felt frustrated. I can't help but shoehorn me and my life into any plot that came up

Honestly?

• A consultant in a parallel universe ponders the morality of strategy for a company which hunts pleisosaurids
• A man thinks about the valuation of time travelling technology
• An economist grapples with recession in a post apocalyptic society
• A demon inhabits the television in a hotel room and plots to take over all the televisions in the hotel
• A restaurant and its clientele thrive by the edge of a cliff where the edge of great planetary storm rages

Underground

I read Wool before it was famous

I am going to look back on this post and smile with satisfaction.

Long live Hugh Howey

Wastrel

Hand axes and stone age
Giant 27 feet crocodiles who ate African Eve possibly
Footprints in the ash

What a mess of monsters and migration is in our past
I wish we had ancestral memory - "There we came from, and no further will I go"
I wish I could stop dreaming about prehistoric Man/Apes so I could go to sleep and wake up fresh for my meeting in the morning

I refuse to care any longer about the Song of Ice and Fire.

Winds of winter may take three years???

I will not be able to stay sane if I continue to care. And so, I will not. No, I don't care that Mad Mouse was LF's hedge knight. Don't care, don't care, don't care about anything

No longer will I re-read those books. Good as they may be the wait is NOT worth it.

So. I will wait until all the books are done. And only then read them. That is a promise. There is enough for me to read in the meanwhile

I'll be forty by the time this happens (grimly). That is no joke.

When I am awake, I struggle not to fall asleep late at night as I click on one more link, read one more story.. one more...

How could anyone want to waste time sleeping when they can read?

When I am asleep, my dreams take over and if I knew I was dreaming then I would never want to wake up

Breaking the face-off now. Will put this laptop away and close my eyes. Farewell waking consciousness. Till tomorrow morning

Mushrooms

Mushrooms growing in the hay

A whole colony

facepalm

(Forgive the multiple posts, but as I am really multiple people, it's not that surprising)

Choice

Are you making the right choices at work?

Are you happy and fulfilled?

Do you even know how to answer these questions?

...

Quantum entanglement

There is a correlation between the results of measurements performed on entangled pairs, and this correlation is observed even though the entangled pair may have been separated by arbitrarily large distances

Bonn and Singapore qualify

It's never over

When you think we are come to an end of an era, a time where all the good is behind us.

That's when you shake yourself and sit up.

There is so much that is wonderful around us. Creativity has not stopped, there are great things happening around us. the world is changing an ever ending coming out of the chrysalis. There is great pain and sorrow everywhere but there is change- the good, the bad and the beautiful

Come to me. I am ready for you. My sails are waiting. Whether I falter and fall or whether I am able to take myself with me, all days are equally exciting. Mourn only that we will die and the change will go on.

Higgs(less)

Ah, science

The search for truth.

And thats how it should be. For example if you were to say there is no Higgs Boson and prove it so, I would say, very well. I accept

But if you were to find it. I would gather the nay sayers and be insufferably smug

God help the insufferably smug if the roles reversed

Miffles

I come home after a long time and it's astounding. the world's sweetest sappiest rabbit has gotten sweeter and sappier

What a good bunny

And snowy? Well I shall do more to spice up my poor bored intelligent rabbit's life. More toys for my bunny. I'd send her to bunny college, where she would be at the top of her class in experimental physics

Frustrated

I can't wait for this to end

Patience

I can feel my temper fray and teeth grit

But be calm my little one. The finish line is in sight.

Keep your blood calm, your eyes down and smile one step at a time.

KL KL

I would much rather that be NY NY

Or even better Chicago

How much of this difference is due to the different circumstances though?

I was one in a crowd in Chicago.

Here I have a family unit, have to be the responsible one, work commitments almost every day, noone to go dancing with

:(

My life feels like its over and its my fault. I am too lazy to pull myself out of this rut I am falling into

Red queen

People hold up mirrors to me and point at it and say "See, that there?"

I do my best to look without flinching. but it's so hard. Sometimes it feels like all of me is pointed as and they say "Yes, that. Change all of that"

That's my soul and it's not a perfect soul.

It's my modus operandi and its not perfect.

It's me and that's not perfect. But it's all the me I've got. It's all the me I've known

But then I think, man... get over yourself. Remember the red queen

Nazgul and Kutuzov

Psychological test

Who are my favourite characters from books? What pops to mind?

See title

Wool

Can I enthusiastically recommend this book?

Wool, Wool, Wool!

This book has had me sacrificing my sleep so I could finish it on a weekday

Such great praise have I to bestow

What that girl from high school would have written

They say discipline is the key. I will choose the substance over the allure

Yet you stand looking out at the world. I have few microns of control and yet I submit

Should I be fool or queen? beggar, mendicant, pauper or preacher, merchant, lord?

Ready to pick up the song at every tune or deaf to the music of life while I bend to it?

Everything is brightly lit but I am blind from this onslaught of light. And were it dark I would see the retinal after light images. Sight in real or metaphorical form is misleading. And what will I trust? The hand which leads me will as gladly toss me beneath the truck. And I am blind blind blind

It's amazing. I can wax methaphorical and blah over something as mundane as business sense

Why? What did you think this post was about?

Another weekend lost

Sometimes I think that I work too hard. Sure everyone does but you forget that I'm lazy and slothful at heart
I actually have to try hard to relax sometimes. Today I spent all morning with the rabbits, reading and playing the flute. Yet I can't forget that later today and tomorrow morning I have calls for work and that I likely have work too

I want to be a scientist

Everyday I feel I want to be something else when I grow up

But then, I always wanted to be scientist when I was a kid. Particularly a paleontologist

So, that's my one regret in life. That I didn't follow my dream from 5th grade

And no, not taking biology in 11th was not when the dream died. Everyone knows that when you take bio in 11th, it's because of Medicine

Doctor or Engineer, that was the classic choice peer pressure offered me.

I should have been a paleontologist. I'd have been tanned, scarred, poor and much less of a princess but I think I would have been happy

Not that I am not happy now. I am now a knight of the new world. Fell beasts plaguing companies, beware

Oh no!

Where did January go????

Where all the other months went but unmourned and unthought of. Poor January

Well, I must do some serious making up in february won't I. This seems to be a really restless year. It started under the stars in the great wide somewhere and seems to be continuing so.

I know I don't seem like I am thoroughly restless but sometimes my mind is at peace when everything is moving around.

work is strange and funny and good and bad and great and sucky and tough and monotonous and exciting and scary and aweinspiring and dull and cold and warm and fun and lonely

Just pick a a word a day