No, I can't really understand why I feel this uncertainty for life coming ahead. I feel impatient like I want to flip to the end of the book and see how things turn out. I am going to have to set some goals for the near future soon. I don't feel comfortable walking out nakedly into tomorrow.
I look at my friends and enemies and I wonder if I do what I do for the latter. I won't be sneered at or pitied over. Pride and happiness sustain me. I like living today but I also like living out an ideal for the peeping toms.
