Standards

I was thinking about managers, bosses and how they are really always being evaluated from below. I think back to someone high up, Manager X whom I thought was perfectly professional, spread evenly and strongly between all points of interest and at least seemed to care for the individuals in the team. But then we did discuss him amongst ourselves and his failings, as few as they might have been, were brought out for display.

I didn't join in, I only listened. As a rule I do not speak up during these types of conversations. I don't have a good filter for what I think and say and I wouldn't want to get into trouble. Besides, its easier to respect ones managers. I just wanted to tell them all about my previous experiences with higher management and how Manager X was a paragon, a God compared to them all. But then all those other people would never have made it into this kind of an organisation. The playing field was completely different. And as a result, everything that I was appreciative of was taken for granted. Agreed, that he was good but that was no reason why they should be blind to his failings. I shrug internally. It will take me a while to get to that stage. I have so many issues about my own deliverables, outcomes and their acceptability. I feel like I'm craving acceptance and thats not a good attitude, no? It's good in the way that it makes me work so much harder. But it's bad in that it gives me confidence issues and derails my personality at work.